The Saints live at walrus! Behind"Unwanted Affair! ;)

As you all know Im a full time singer/entertainer/artist! Who makes a living through music and voice. Ive been away on a Island... reinventing myself silently nd boy do I have a lot of work to do. Im not getting any younger..but let me fill you in with this ol project im bringing back to life. Saints was created the summer of 2011. I auditioned a group of fellas and they all rocked in their own unique ways.We appeared in local rock magazine such as Mag-X, played various rock shows at rock n roll venues like Simon sez and The flying walrus. This was a great time. I needed to let out an ol past that keept haunting me i memories. I igured best way to let it die put the past away was to sing it out. Original music. like the saying goes..Rock N roll saved me, It worked,was great  metgreat people and now Ive moved on to yet another genre and solo project. Everyone who participated in this awesome band The saints is doing great on their own! This song featured we had only praciced a couple of tmes before creating it mind you and doing a show after the band formed. So fast yet it says alot about the band!Talented!!! one of themany songs we created its called"Unwanted Affair" is about a relationship not formed yet but your infatuation with bad boys. ladies can relate a charmer player snarky egotistical  handsome guy who just knows how to steal womens hearts and break them at the same time...having others on the side while your stuck loving everything confusing it with lust..shes grown tired of his ways and finally sees him for what he is and its becme a unwanted affair. "He's a rockstar in my eyes..but it is no suprise so i seer clear before i get hypnotized again....an we all make mistakes..seems i repeat them always..as i sit here crying liner down my face again again again.." First verse line.Shes not new to this game and attraction to the bad boy! Enjoy the jam off to the next blog! Xoxo

My Captive Heart..

Captive heart -Bella 
 
I sing I dance Ive acted on  my own stage of life. I stay stagant and hope to move out of place. Maybe, I wasn't meant to shine as bright as the stars in the sky, like all the other mentors of mine do through out my slides in music. Ive helped others seek their goals and dreams and dim my light..for a change. I yearn the desire and passion to sing my soul out but she hides somewhere unknown. The love I always needed is lost forever or at least ..with my eyes I cant see it quite clear. Maybe Im blind in love ...therefore I could never be happy or complete in my fairytale. I have had many bumps in the road  as far as survival and dilemmas ..some that often repeat a cycle  and burn my strong hurt to the ground little by little. Friends come and go..because my lifestyle can be dark and fast and lonely but adventurous.."The gypsy way" I call it. If i wasn't here in the valley home land..or island bungalow ..I'd still leave ,like I have done before.Im not use to being grounded so long in everything .Im not use to a stable nothing but the music which haunts me. I felt trapt. Trapt in this world of night life..of music. I feel cursed every once in awhile. Im not married.Never have been. I have no kids. I dont have a regular normal job or routine. I do what I know and done it all basically. Ive come far to it many times and chose the wrong paths. Im happy with the gift I consume. Im unhappy in areas I cannot reach. I let myself drown in sorrow alone with my own inner demons no one but me can fight. I want to see light. I need more God in my life too. Im not writting for a pity party .Im writting to be normal and let out this emotions that make me human. Im not a robot. People treat me like one sometimes. I just wanted  peace from my chaos.Beauty and talent means nothing when your inner world in your mind is cold and dark and lonely and lost! I cry. I have anxiety. I have other dreams. I dont know what else to say other than Ive been held captive...in my mind in the music and now..at 30 in my heart. She wants to wake from her burdens. Oh help me god..I need light.This is off the record and in my thoughts. Captive heart bella is still imprisoned ..when will she be free again?!

Sincerly,
Chelsea Xo

"Just Wait...."

"And we we're broke.. and didnt know":


Hay  my friends! Its been awhile since I last blogged. Its important, that  I let some of my coworkers, networkers  & even close friends know whats going on in my world.This was my quick solution to that situation. I ve been crazy busy!! with new projects & tasks its hard to get around to every single friend or acquaintance. So here It goes...


 I have a band called "The Saints "as some of you might know of or not, which  took a short break to pursue other things and such to family matters E.t.c We will return with a new demo and show by the end of this month, so check that out! Like our page to be up to date.My fellow Producers /Dj/ networking partners "Verdugo Brothers" out of california got signed to a major agency!  Amen! Super stoked for them!!  & whats to come. We still have more original dance tracks and of course music vids to be out.. not long from now. So add them, like em,check out their twitters/sites as mine to be aware when it  does happen very soon! I also redcently just started a booking company thats legit called "Bellasea Productions"  I hustle work for other local artists whom may struggle to keep or find jobs. I also do throw full band variety shows at local venues uptown and downtown who rarely have a chance to jam!I want to help others gain exposure or experience and give them work.The opportunities were never given ..but earned for me. I wish I had someone to basically offer,what Im already in process of  doing for them.. in  the valley.Plus, the best part is  not only do I, love being around Music, that has always been apart of my blood and lifestyle..its when my friends whom are so talented share the same passion in front of my eyes!.. Thats why I started all this I relate & connect. Gosh! Like not even work but it is what it is..and I enjoy what I do. who wouldnt if it was your  passion right?


Anyhow, I was asked  to join forces as a writer for a New upcoming music magazine called"RGV MUSICIANS UNITED". It all deals and relates to music in the RGV! Ive already posted some stories on local artists and female supporters at shows as well. Its different & fun! why not ? Maybe I'll find another passion..who knows?! Although it requires alot of time,, I love it already and I got a great team. All who are involved happen to be Musicians themselves,,hence, musicians united. Kinda like the work im already doing with  the local artists I expose, SO pleased! Really excited  for this new venture. It should be out next month as well.  I still sing on and off but Im finally gonna take a REAl break in  a week. Im managing mostly and booking shows.Sometimes often bombarded with double gigs in a day. Challenging but fun. I love to keep  busy as always. Whats new am I right? I still will be involved.My life is fast   yet spontenous. I am now"behind the curtains" so to speak. If any of you reading this needs help,knows someone whos musically inclined..I can help you/them.Contact me here or other site. I have done this for too damn long..and know everything,, its not easy.Lets just be real for a minute. Not everyone can just do it or find it.It takes alot.With that said, Im here to open a door or save the day!

So all this is time consuming . I hardly rest. My days and nights are full. Speaking of, I have new beau! Yay! Bella found her vampy & is Taken.  Lol! D*whom Im linked to, adore being around... do everything with and feel complete by. Im finallyyyy Happy!  :)  I get all amorous  & shit ! (Myspave term) haha!I dont mean to be chessy or brag but this lifestyle and work is hard. Not everyone can keep up  with me or it or at least this long. Ive made many sacrifices and continue to. Ive suffered alone and faced reality. It bites lol! So please respect my space and time.Its been at least seven years since I last addressed this subject .Pretty redonkulous dont cha think? Understand im not blowing noone off..Im just making some me time with my bf/love and a break from entertainment. Entertainers such as I ,also need to rest and live a little you know. Be entertained too haha! So all is good with me. Hope my lovely friends and fans or whoever is reading.. are doing amazing! I'm content & lucky to have a supportive family,friends & Boyfriend who.. all  I love so much!! I'll be back in  the scene eventually..so stay tuned.More projects  &music shows to be brought to you soon! & then some.
For your entertainment."Just..Wait,,,,,and See
" ;)
Much love & blessings! Rock on
<3
xoxo C.BELLA

And so it is..

And so it is
..just like I thought it would be..I finally saw my musical influence " Brandon boyd of Incubus" along with linkin park this week it was aaaaahhh amazing !! :)) What a rush,although it wasnt long enough it was great anyway..not to mention treated like a queen) in the presence of another for several days. Gosh, what the hell have I been doing here all along?!  Lol! Ive missed out on so much and more!! Its funny when you have something so neat and real in front of ya then you ignore and stray away. I dunno its late night, have alot on my mind,new goals in process with my band. Now new thoughts, of people..perspectives.. whos real whos not? Who I want around more and who I want to part from. When I part its cause Im simply scared..when I remain close, I feel safe & comfty with the person female or male. It takes very little  mistakes for me to rid a friend or lover..and it takes a lot for me to stick around. Im extremely complicated and picky. I admit it. I giged late tonite,so beat from my adventurous weekend at the beach and trip to H-town! Too fun,exciting great really happy. It made me think of where I want to be..right now. I came back home,thinkin bigger as far as leaving the valley. Watching  musical influences rock do what they love, being in a big city,the life.. the little stress I felt because of  the generousity and gratitude that was given to me.I was  finally taken care of for once. It felt good to know good people are out there. They exist. Aside of the random thoughts and vibes im feeling.. I am content.There's so much more out there. So much to be done,so many other people to meet ,greet bond, care for and appreciate. Big show manana. Over the late night blogging lol! And so it is...just like I said,..it should be..Nighty!! Peace n Love :)
Xoxo
Bella

Take it ,like it is!

I have to get this out of my chest! I am single now, determined, and focusing on music like I have been. I cannot stand superficial friends and guys that surround me. Like I owe them something more,when I receive less? Wow, Relationships, I aint  looking.I usually dont. I got a great band,good handset of pals,health ,family thats all I need and want ,and a future I want to make happen sooner than later. If people want to be in my life or cycle then,they need a good head on their shoulders big heart,down to earth...considerate and confident.! Both women and men. I dont need shady snake whores surrounding my presence or player little boys who ruin my creativity and both takes a toll on my energy and so forth. I can only move foward and not  step back. The past is a past for a legitiment reason both relationships,partnerships and even some friends.

I do not care nor wanna know any drama, I dont have time. I dont wanna be in the middle of nothing cause I am who I am and do what I desire. I have goals like any other. Mine require some space distance,and certain needs.So if you dont fall in that category or boat jump off ,move out my way..Im not stopping for no one or will let anything get in my path. I say this with a pure heart  and respect for anybody reading. lets cut the b.s. (you know who you are)..if you feel bad or guilty"Ding Ding" ,you must of done something wrong and know that I am right at this point.Take it like it is or..dont bother knowing me.
Thanks, Peace n Love
 xoxo
Bella

Stuck in Circles.

Sometimes late at night like these.. I question..faith,love and my mind goes in Circles! We all have opinions we share them ..use them, cover them up silently so we cant hurt anothers feelings. I now dont feel for others like I use to. Im not cold..because I dont know what thats like,..but Im curious. Its Ironic, how men treat women and women treat their men. Just plain ol bullshit over and over. Strong women get hurt anyway,weak women are hurt but dont admit or face the facts.You see all these wanna be hot shots with nothing, dogging or using theyre girlfriends. Women being golddigging whores because they have nothing else to offer or self respect. It annoys me ,upsets me,disgusts me to see this! Especially to gals and guys I do know. Snakes. Snakes trying to be buddies with you,to gather info for other snakes. Men using you only for sex,or popularity. Women, to gain attention or connnections. Sick!! This often happens to me too. I cant trust many, but care for alot. So Im stuck. Stuck in the middle.Fighting for faith in them and myself..hoping for love not hate. Whats the point. It goes in circles.. right?. Doesnt filter out. Noone can careless. Ive been optimistic for centuries now, yet I see no change in these same subjects. I pray for peace,and love of course..I receive litte of it...but I am not throwing the white flag.Im simply saying whats on my mind...Anxiety can kick in the current moment. The only good thing is the writting from experiences, I get from all of it. Thats the positive side of the coin. Ive already reached my kind limit. Humble me,always giving into the heart not the brain..f the heart think the brain.. be it! It helps you know. When you care less, and ignore more. My mind is racing. Things have been swell aside of certain little issues and a few individuals. Anything can be resolved or answered. Pondering, lurking, observing I do best. Funny, cause its not what you know or had in mind but what you feeel and see. Seek answers, patience.. and  They shall appear right in front of you. Just a thought..my random bubbles that circle. Everything is a cycle and circles around..lets just hope the bad doesnt repeat over and over to you in circles like it can and has had me stuck. Lets Pray  
xoxo Bella

Cause I Dont give Ahh :)

Hey Boys and Gals!!

Its been forever sinced I blogged. I made time tonite because I usually make time for everyone else but myself really! Well,thats changed. Sooo Much has happened in the past 6 to 8 months.  I made two really neat house music videos  in San Fransisco and Sacramento,  California with the talented Dj/Producers called Verdugo brothers one jam is"Killa Kind" which was explosive on Youtube..insane views, the other is "Your Kiss" but ..we mutually took a break from that side project to pursue other goals for awhile! So just be on the lookout. I recently made a old vision come back to life,by gathering local musicians and started a band which I call "The Saints". Since 2004 it  was when I originally came up with that name and Idea. I really enjoy songwritting..to the point where I closed myself off from the club scene to focus and concentrate on what I love and Im good at. I havent forgotten the real passion here.. the desire to be a true artist and entertainer,having a band of rock & roll music and possibly touring or just plain ol performing again. I missed it so. Anyhow, Im delighted to have such a great group! I mean we had only practiced 3 weeks and performed four complete original songs together wowee! :) With a little help from myself, to arrange compose write and sing the melody worked out in no time.I know that I am not the best vocalist out there but I try,I pull it off and love it! Persistance kept me in line to make this happen. Alone I did. All the songs are based on ol experiences and relateable situations to all. I just really hope it works out in the long run. Its my dream and I havent given up. I may be a petite 28 year old adult..but that doesnt make me weak ,I am actually very strong mentally and through experience so to say. Age matters. I love being close to thirty now. Gosh!!! lol! Okay, Im not that old yet haha..but it makes me realize how far Ive come. Ive been a singer performer  professionally since 12 years old..giging singing kareoke, solo acts,talent groups,traveling opening acts,solo artists,groups,cover bands,acoustic act  & now a real Original rock band!  Amazing! Oh yes, and I havent taken a break.Most people do. Not once have I paused on singing. Meaning I literally been singing since the age of three and Im 28. Do the math.Question is whats next? Will see where this newest exciting humble journey takes me. Ive suffered alot, broken down frowned,felt alone any emotion you can gather Ive felt silently sometimes noticeable but its all worth it to me in the end. So long story short..I can careless what others feel think, say, spit, swallow their pride "be-Cause I dont give ahh" like a lyric line to a my song...all that matters is me music and my life!!  Its all positive vibes, from here on out..redeemed Ive become.I truly hope all goes well for myself the guys and everyone who supports me..the Real friends and fans I know. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I dont forget. God bless ,See you soon to a stage near you or further!! :)

Much love,
Bella  xoxo