Everything Zen...

Well it is true. As I go on with everyday hustlin..it actually pays off in mysterious ways.Not too long ago I tried out for American Idol..what a experience) ..and even though I didnt make the cut...there are other opportunities and doors to be open.Ryan Seacrest came up to us and  we met the cool cat! He was very humble (which I love most about people in general)... Cant stand stand offish or conceited people out there who love to brag, anyhow,I realized that its not about If you make it to be famous or who you met..and how much you have done with your current life..but about if you love what you do and how you are you everyday in your life also..letting that TRUE inner light within standout of you too! Its amazing how people that are close to you or dont even know you..see that light!Then you should be at peace or ease with yourself. I recently doubted myself in music and was getting bored..but thats not my case. I branched out to new things and opportunitys that were given to me to see what others view of me for a minute . I see other people with similarities as mine, and see them stall. Stay still.Brag.Compete..ignore whats really important here etc. Im like ok, get over your immaturity and find yourself because we all know what this is really about. In search of myself still at least I admit that ..until the day I do..thats another story lol! I have not been this content with myself and where I'm at in so many years. I got so many things going on at once its insane.I battled alot of inner demons and negative people for so long in my past..I struggled to get out of the darkness that led me on into the nothing it was..and surroundings.So All in all Im doing ok :)..Hope whoever is reading this is as well. My hardwork in other scenarios is def paying off. I met my musical icon gavin rossdale recently one of many not bragging just explaning  ..which was rad and I missed out on so many concerts Im treating myself to this.I got in free,met him for free! Funny huh? Your hardwork will pay off too ..other rewards will be sent out from above.I got involved with promo deals..and was broadcasted on live television internationally throughout the world on telefutura. For golden boy productions which is Oscar de la hoyas deal! I mean..Im not the hottest richest or most popular gal out there in the world.No way! Or better than you reading! Hell to the no!!!Im just like You! Not ordinary but driven I guess! I want keep living and have many more incredible adventures....so ask yourself? Do you know who you are truly? Are you a mask of something we cannot see? Whats your color? Are you happy with yourself and where your at in life? Those questions raise for answers..which makes you answer yourself? Get me? Im Happy...my hardwork is finalllyyyy paying off . I got alot of work to do..So stay tuned!!!In the long search of the complete side of me..until then..Everything Zen! ;) Much love to all Peace.Ciao! xoxo Bella