Fazes & Changes...

I wrote a song a few months ago for a original Jazz feel, based on how my life has changed so much for the better and how relationships fade. Ive had it rough ,like no other in such a way...I was damaged inside..but luckily.. Ive been off that Love hate Road for awhile now. Isn't weird how lovers or friends are suppose to meet? I mean, I lost contact with someone recently then years later poof shes back! Which is great..because some friendships last and some are just for the meantime..for other life lessons of life experiences etc.I was not always a bad person with a bad attitude or bad relationship. I was just going through..a "Faze". A ridiculous one ..but it was too late to get out once your in for the ride at the time. Ive lost best friends..and regained friendships back!! Life is so funny..those curve balls are fast too. lol!I know now, Im still in my prime and I can conquer anything I want or anything I desire in all categories.As any of Ya'll reading this. This by the way, is the complete lighter , opposite side of me haha! Back to the damn libra thing..but I cant help myself.This is who I am.I am both.I love everything and I like to experience all or new changes.Im not trying to fit in. Im just learning new things ..going thru new changes in my present life! Then once I get Bored I pick up either new materials, Music Interest,Hobbies,friends..but with that its hard! It sucks to know that some of my once so called besties from childhood and on..dont have anything in common with me other than old memories?? Am I a bad friend? For not wanting to always hang with them or contact..I mean seriously, we are not in grade or high school anymore.I love certain things a certain way..and if they cant understand or realized then we were just meant to be friends for faze, again life lessons etc. I dont know..I had my reunion recently and a really good friend of mine back then and still.. was not the same friend I  hungout,partied with  in high school.Actually it goes for many.I love church and all but I dont preach about it every minute..and its like we were born into sin you know? I love to drink..I cutt down actually..she insisted she doesn't or wine only. I was bummed. Because these peeps are great people and I hate to come in and corrupt their believes or cycle for living per say.Im not a Mean  person cause I have a big heart..like my family..But Ive Become so confrontational its too much sometimes.Like I said I can be simple, I can be chill, I can be anything really..I can like things you like but it may not faze me. Things I use to love are not fazing me anymore.People I loved to be around dont faze me neither.Im typing away, but I just wanna let it out...shout it loud lol jk! Had to switch the serious mood to silly. SEE! Haha! Anyhow, If you guys think Im an idiot please share your thoughts..Relate, Or whatever you desire to post..I'm just going with the program ..my program and Im getting old so.. your either in or not thats kind of the way I see it now..Fazes & Changes..O well Thats My Life for Ya!!Always.... everyday..till then ciao ciao! PEACE TO ALL!! :) much love
xoxo
Bella