This Bottle Is Full ..And Needs To be Spilled Over..

Ahh Here we go again:
I cant help myself...but wonder why do people insist on hurting one another? Seriously we are all alike. In this case, Im mentioning friendships,Mutual Aquantinces. Im a lover not a fighter.I may have become more outspoken throughout the past years ,instead of generalizing which I always did..cause I did not wanna hurt anyones feelings.Well lol! That has completely changed haha! I dont care what people think or say about me anymore.At All! Recently some mutual aquantice,took my ex to my work place and flirted with him all nite.In my book thats girl code to not be partying flirting with your gal pals ex flame. Geezass I mean,cant you get your own men?? I figured maybe this person is in a insecure  place.That was my last draw to women like that.Im super old school,at least if your my friend I would not take that road or approach.Weeks later,this certain individual, had already played the innocent game(gemini) had her bestie write me...well...she screwed over her "Bestie"   as well!! Of many years!! Can you believe this? Insane..women are vicious lol! Thats why I have so many guy friends,and my bf approves,,Im lucky! Aye no, I had given this wicked soul a chance after she screwed over my current bestie!I like to see the good in people ,then the bad.. but I never trust right away ...hell no! I ve had ..even until this day many encounters of whorebag fake friends!! Believe! If,example we dont hangout its for two reasons....and two reasons only(ladies I dont trust you or we really have nothing in common. Thats the way I see things. Its for the best.I rather not waste each others time..so lets cut the crap! You know what I mean? Im sure any guy or girl can relate once to this matter.Im trying realll hard to stay positive on this blog..cause this site is meant for relieve on inner thoughts or curiousities...but when this subject came upon, I just had to let it out,,,before the poison sinks in my ol broken soul.This bottle had been full..and had to be spilled over lol! Women. Cant live with them, cant live without em.I sound like a boy...A tomboy..I am.. but I am a girly girl too! Much love to all .Peace ciao:)
xoxo bella

Everything Zen...

Well it is true. As I go on with everyday hustlin..it actually pays off in mysterious ways.Not too long ago I tried out for American Idol..what a experience) ..and even though I didnt make the cut...there are other opportunities and doors to be open.Ryan Seacrest came up to us and  we met the cool cat! He was very humble (which I love most about people in general)... Cant stand stand offish or conceited people out there who love to brag, anyhow,I realized that its not about If you make it to be famous or who you met..and how much you have done with your current life..but about if you love what you do and how you are you everyday in your life also..letting that TRUE inner light within standout of you too! Its amazing how people that are close to you or dont even know you..see that light!Then you should be at peace or ease with yourself. I recently doubted myself in music and was getting bored..but thats not my case. I branched out to new things and opportunitys that were given to me to see what others view of me for a minute . I see other people with similarities as mine, and see them stall. Stay still.Brag.Compete..ignore whats really important here etc. Im like ok, get over your immaturity and find yourself because we all know what this is really about. In search of myself still at least I admit that ..until the day I do..thats another story lol! I have not been this content with myself and where I'm at in so many years. I got so many things going on at once its insane.I battled alot of inner demons and negative people for so long in my past..I struggled to get out of the darkness that led me on into the nothing it was..and surroundings.So All in all Im doing ok :)..Hope whoever is reading this is as well. My hardwork in other scenarios is def paying off. I met my musical icon gavin rossdale recently one of many not bragging just explaning  ..which was rad and I missed out on so many concerts Im treating myself to this.I got in free,met him for free! Funny huh? Your hardwork will pay off too ..other rewards will be sent out from above.I got involved with promo deals..and was broadcasted on live television internationally throughout the world on telefutura. For golden boy productions which is Oscar de la hoyas deal! I mean..Im not the hottest richest or most popular gal out there in the world.No way! Or better than you reading! Hell to the no!!!Im just like You! Not ordinary but driven I guess! I want keep living and have many more incredible adventures....so ask yourself? Do you know who you are truly? Are you a mask of something we cannot see? Whats your color? Are you happy with yourself and where your at in life? Those questions raise for answers..which makes you answer yourself? Get me? Im Happy...my hardwork is finalllyyyy paying off . I got alot of work to do..So stay tuned!!!In the long search of the complete side of me..until then..Everything Zen! ;) Much love to all Peace.Ciao! xoxo Bella